Emptiness...this is my feeling right now...2 days in a row can't sleep at night...go to sleep at almost 6 am....abnormal...but i feel good and it supposedly not good ok....i'm actually want to have that feeling again...."EMPTY & TRANQUIL & PERFECT"...i've felt these once....but i don't know where did they go now....i want to have them back....the feeling that nobody can share it with you..only you knew it....but i have to have it back.....go back to basic....to Allah...look for Him...what i've done...think back...why i've lost it...but now what happen to me??????????????????
- I can't stop thinking...thinking of what? i don't even know.....
- Jiwa x tenang....kusut....(this makes me stay up at night)
- what are my goal?....apakah kehendak diri ini sebenarnya
- tranformation!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!----->harus betulkan aqidahku dulu....
i'm surrounded by people that i supposedly stay away....am i an abettor????keeping the story that is really wrong....what else can i do?????im confused...im crying inside when thinking about this.........scared..terrified...Oh Tuhan....
