SMILE...SMILE....SMILE...DIE....!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Push myself to smile outside...then smile...smile.....

and i always make you smile....just the way i am....smile...smile...smile....

Empty

Emptiness...this is my feeling right now...2 days in a row can't sleep at night...go to sleep at almost 6 am....abnormal...but i feel good and it supposedly not good ok....i'm actually want to have that feeling again...."EMPTY & TRANQUIL & PERFECT"...i've felt these once....but i don't know where did they go now....i want to have them back....the feeling that nobody can share it with you..only you knew it....but i have to have it back.....go back to basic....to Allah...look for Him...what i've done...think back...why i've lost it...but now what happen to me??????????????????

• I can't stop thinking...thinking of what? i don't even know.....
• Jiwa x tenang....kusut....(this makes me stay up at night)
• what are my goal?....apakah kehendak diri ini sebenarnya
• tranformation!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!----->harus betulkan aqidahku dulu....

i'm surrounded by people that i supposedly stay away....am i an abettor????keeping the story that is really wrong....what else can i do?????im confused...im crying inside when thinking about this.........scared..terrified...Oh Tuhan....

99 Names of Allah

99 Names of Allah-By Sami Yusuf

Rahim
Karimun
'Adim
'Alimun
Halim
Hakimun
Matin

Mannan
Rahmaanun
Fattah
Gaffarun
Tawwab
Razzaqun
Syahid

Allahuma shalli 'ala Muhammad wa ali Muhammad
Ya Muslimin shallu alayh

Allahuma shalli 'ala Muhammad wa shahbi Muhammad
Ya Mu'minn shallu alayh

Latif
Khabirun
Sami'
Basirun
Jalil
Raqibun
Mujib
Ghafuur
Syakuurun
Waduud
Qayuumun
Ra'uuf
Sabuurun
Majid

Allahuma shalli 'ala Muhammad wa ali Muhammad
Ya Muslimin sallu alayh

Allahuma shalli 'ala Muhammad wa shahbi Muhammad
Ya Mu'mineen shallu alayh

Allahu Akbar Allahu Akbar
La ilaha illa hu
Al Malikul Quddus

Allahu Akbar Allahu Akbar
Ya Rahmanul irham da'fana

Allahu Akbar Allahu Akbar
Ya Ghaffaru ighfir dhunubana

Allahu Akbar Allahu Akbar
Ya Sattaru ustur 'uyubana

Allahu Akbar Allahu Akbar
Ya Mu'izu a'izza ummatana

Allahu Akbar Allahu Akbar
Ya Mujibu ajib du'aana

Allahu Akbar Allahu Akbar
Ya latifu ultuf bina
Ya latifu ultuf bina
Ya latifu ultuf bina
ultuf bina